A Week & A 1/2

Wow! Can it be true, the picture in my head.
The one that i had painted for so many years.
She seems so perfect, everything that
I am looking for in a woman, the look, smile and most important
"THE HEART" This couldn't be true it's only a week and a half

Love at first sight? Maybe, who knows
But things aren't  normal
I am engaged
Engaged in a situation for many years
I have questioned
Some days good
Some days bad
Some days good
Some days bad
I cannot live that way
But I am confused
And you might not understand why

I want to go all the way
Just F*** IT!
But I don't want to hurt you
For your honesty and sweetness cannot and "WILL" not be taken for granted

All I can say is time will tell
If two hearts are to be they will be
Why rush, for our lives are already planned
We are just LIVING IT OUT!

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